People around me keep telling me I have high standards when it comes to men and that results in the fact that after 22 years of existence I am still single. I don’t date frequently and that’s because no one asks me or if ever a guy asks me out I end up getting disappointed by the end of the day. I live by the phrase everyone deserves a chance to prove them selves but at times I also live by my uncertainties and refuse. The only problem I see with this is that expectations I will set because of a certain way I wish to be treated. It’s like my curse because I love books and writing somehow I have created a plot in my mind and when something goes wrong I feel disheartened.
With that in mind I also account my very low self-esteem for not agreeing to go out on a date. Most of the time I feel like I’m just wasting their time and money and attention. I understand that the primary notion for dating is to get to know someone but since at times I am pretty much ambiguous with my own feelings I don’t want to string them along. It’s not reasonable for me to treat someone as an option so I require to be treated the same way.
So now that we’ve got that out of our way I try to use this as an argument with my friends and family but still they think I have way too high standards that cannot be reached. I have also been told that I am way too superficial or that I have read too many romance novels that may have clouded my judgment. The truth is I really don’t have a clear picture of what I really want because I don’t even fancy making a list of traits I want him to have. All this time that I have waited the only thing I have been looking for is a feeling. I want this guy to make me second guess my clothes if I look pretty, I want someone who would make me want to check my phone every now and then. I want butterflies in my tummy. Ultimately I want him to make me feel like I am always at the edge like I am anticipating that something great is about to happen when I am with him and I hope I do this for him as well.
*This are my thoughts which is probably similar to other people’s opinions. So if there are any similarities it is purely coincidental.
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